Disclaimer

I do not own The Twilight Saga, Life and Death, or any other story that my fanfictions are based on.

Also most teasers, sneak peeks, lost moments, and other material on this site are unedited and as such may have errors, may be subject to some changes, etc.

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Wednesday, October 31, 2018

One-Shot Ideas

One-Shot Ideas

So, on occasion I get a request via PM for random one-shots and other stories. Normally the ideas are off the wall, but occasionally their interesting. As a general rule, when I get random requests I encourage the person to write it themselves. 

But for this post, I want to offer a free-shot for people to request one-shots written by me. 

If anyone wants me to write a one-shot please post the idea in a comment and I will get it written. The only three areas I won't do a one-shot for someone else are Harry Potter, Crossovers, and anything regarding real people. 

The requests needed to be posted on my blog if you want me to write it. 

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Random Youtube Channel Recs

One of the many things I do to try and get me into the mood to write is watch/listen to youtube videos. Obviously music is a big thing for me and I could list hundreds of different singers and bands that I enjoy. But I also occasionally listen to other stuff. Below are my top five random channels that I enjoy in no particular order


Quite possibly one of the oldest youtube channels that I check out on a relatively regular basis. They do everything from food taste test to games to random competitions. The two main people that perform on the show, Rhett and Link, are funny and very easy to enjoy.


Babish, also known as Andrew Rea, has been making videos of the food from shows and movies for about two years now. It is interesting to watch him recreate memorable dishes from the numerous shows and movies out there. He also does tutorial videos to help the new home chef


This channel was previously called Google Translate Fails, it parodies songs (as well as other things) after running them through a translator (generally google) too many times. The results of this are often spectacularly horrifying. 


She is a comedian with healthy humor. She's an older lady and almost never swears, but is genuinely funny. My favorite video of hers is "Don't Send a Man to the Grocery Store!" 

and finally


This channel shows the epic moments and fails of different TV game shows including Family Feud and is great for a good laugh. 



This is what happens when I don't have anything story related to post. 

Monday, October 29, 2018

The Position Behind My Continuation of Life and Death

So, as I opened up Death and Rebirth: New Moon Reimagined, I tried to imagine what would have happened after Life and Death now that Beau was a vampire. Especially if I followed the general plotline of the rest of the Twilight Saga. This brought forth a number of challenges. 

In the original Twilight Saga, it is this really sappy teenage love story with small hints at deeper meanings and thought processes. The first time I read the complete saga, I read it in much that way - as a sappy teenage love story.

But I needed to find more meaning, more depth, than just that. So I read it again, and again, and again (you get the picture). A little background on me is that I'm a lawyer with a major in psychology. So to put that into perspective, I need to suss things out, need to analyze, over analyze, and ultimately understand every little detail of something I become obsessed with. This would be why I've read the Twilight Saga well over twenty times. I could go in depth into my thoughts on Bella, Edward, Jacob and the other characters in the Twilight Saga (in fact I probably will, in some other post(s)), but that's not the purpose of this post.

The Twilight Saga has a lot of different changes that happen to the characters, but it never goes into detail on the changes. The focus wasn't on the character growth, the emotional development, or the maturing of the characters in general. It was all there, in the background, but it wasn't a focus. Instead, the focus was on a sappy teenage romance that had no morality or anything else behind it.

So going into my stories, I wanted the characters to still have that ultimate sappy romance, but I wanted there to be reason behind it, I wanted people to actually see the growth of the characters. The problem is that the main characters, Beau and Edythe, are both vampires, both turned at seventeen. So barring major influence they can't change. A "real life" romance would never survive if all it was was an early stage first love with no depth behind it.

Because of the way vampires are in the Twilight universe, Beau isn't just going to wake up one day and be a mature adult (he can't sleep), Edythe would never instantly move away from that overprotective vampire faze. There are a lot of psyche flaws - for a lack of a better word - in both of the main characters. And since vampires are stuck in their ways and almost never change without major things happening, it makes it difficult to have these characters grow.

For Edythe, walking away from Beau because she believed it would save him and then believing he was killed has helped her to grow into a more mature woman, watching him walk away and actually be with Jules - at least for a short while - made her come even farther into her own. Obviously, Beau didn't get to see most of that growth as he wasn't there for it, but it's hinted at through the first half of Rebirth and Affliction. The thing with Edythe though is that she was no longer a child when she was turned. In the early 1900s a seventeen year old would most likely already be at that point where they're starting to be courted, where they're learning to be a homemaker, learning how to raise children, and more. Edythe wouldn't have quite been an adult when she was turned, but she definitely wasn't what we consider to be as a typical teen in today's terms

Beau, on the other hand is more of a typical teenager. He's just a seventeen year old boy who was turned at that cusp of adulthood.  He didn't grow up in a time of war, disease and/or depression, he never had that kind of experience. He never truly had a chance to grow up at all. (Born middle age and all that be damned, he's still a kid). To top all of that off, he was stubborn as hell when he was human so that comes through in spades now that he's a vampire. As a result, Beau's journey is more difficult. It takes multiple metaphorical 4x4's whacking him over the head to get him to grow.  Having him deal in depression, anger, bloodlust, and more have helped to develop the backbone behind that growth. As we go into the second half of Rebirth and Affliction, the final major metaphorical 4x4 will hit him. It's that one, the major one actually, that will finally break through that stubborn wall in his mind.

There's more to these stories than just that emotional growth, but that particular part of the stories is about to hit it's climax, at least where Beau and Edythe are concerned (Jules growth is still to come).  

Hopefully I have done justice to the struggles, setbacks, and general state of continuity that will allow these characters to truly find love, respect and happiness in the long run.

Sunday, October 28, 2018

Book Recommendations

So, PBS just released they're top 100 great american reads. The top book was listed as To Kill A Mocking Bird by Harper Lee.

I could easily list my top 100 books or even my top 1000, but many of those fluctuate as I read new books, re-read old ones, or my mood in general changes. So instead I'm just listing my top five which really hasn't changed at all in more than half a dozen years, and my number one pick has been in that spot for about fifteen years.

5. Esperanza Rising by Pam Munoz.

The book description: Esperanza thought she'd always live a privileged life on her family's ranch in Mexico. She'd always have fancy dresses, a beautiful home filled with servants, and Mama, Papa, and Abuelita to care for her. But a sudden tragedy forces Esperanza and Mama to flee to California and settle in a Mexican farm labor camp. Esperanza isn't ready for the hard work, financial struggles brought on by the Great Depression, or lack of acceptance she now faces. When Mama gets sick and a strike for better working conditions threatens to uproot their new life, Esperanza must find a way to rise above her difficult circumstances-because Mama's life, and her own, depend on it.

My thoughts: I first read this book when I was in my freshman year of high school, and though I've never read it to completion again, this book has stuck with me. It was probably one of the first books I ever read that made me take major look at the reasons why people sometimes cross the border, especially illegally.

4. The Pit and The Pendulum by Edgar Allan Poe

The book description: The story is about the torments endured by a prisoner of the Spanish Inquisition, though Poe skews historical facts. The narrator of the story describes his experience of being tortured. The story is especially effective at inspiring fear in the reader because of its heavy focus on the senses, such as sound, emphasizing its reality, unlike many of Poe's stories which are aided by the supernatural. The traditional elements established in popular horror tales at the time.

My thoughts: I've read this short story a dozen times, maybe more. Some people don't appreciate the darkness in this story but I find it to be one of the most interesting reads out there.

3. If I Stay by Gayle Foreman

The book description: In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heartwrenchingly beautiful, this will change the way you look at life, love, and family. Now a major motion picture starring Chloe Grace Moretz, Mia's story will stay with you for a long, long time.

My thoughts: Since this book has come out, I have read it four times. This book is one of the most moving, beautiful and tragic books that I have ever read. I love the book and it brings me to tears every time I read it.

2. 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher

The book description: Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a strange package with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker—his classmate and crush—who committed suicide two weeks earlier. Hannah's voice tells him that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out why.

My thoughts: I've read this book no less than ten times since it came out. This book brings to life the reality of the consequences of one's actions  It will truly make a person wonder about jus what way their words and actions can affect those around them.

1. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison

The book description: Pecola Breedlove, a young black girl, prays every day for beauty. Mocked by other children for the dark skin, curly hair, and brown eyes that set her apart, she yearns for normalcy, for the blond hair and blue eyes that she believes will allow her to finally fit in.Yet as her dream grows more fervent, her life slowly starts to disintegrate in the face of adversity and strife.

My thoughts: It is truly one of the most disturbing and depressing books I have ever read. It is beautifully written with a flair of surreal as well as a heavy dose of realism. I think every person should read it at least once, and I will never read it again.

Saturday, October 27, 2018

Forever Protector Teaser

Currently Forever Protector is the favorite on the poll. I'm not sure how soon I'll get it written, but below is a small teaser of it.


There was a constant pull in the back of my mind reminding me of everything I'd lost, all because of my own stubbornness, but I constantly pushed it aside. It was anything but easy, however, after over thirty years in La Push with Embrianna and Jules it was my norm. 

They were only two wolves from the original pack of ten still shifting. The last hold out other than them had been Leland and he'd shifted to his wolf form and run off into the forest almost two years ago.

Not that there weren't other shifters because there were. Samantha's oldest two daughters were now pack members, along with Paula's daughter, and Jaelyn's twin boys. It seemed that as long as a threat was in the area, shifters continued to turn... and with me living in the little cabin on the outskirts of La Push as the first line of defense, there was always a threat in the area. Me. 

I smelled Jules before she wrapped her arms around my waist and put her chin on my shoulder, checking to see what I was looking at.

"How's Leila?" I murmured.

"She's a fifteen year old brand new shifter. So she's volatile and angry and feeling betrayed. She hates both of us and I can't blame her."

I sighed, but I couldn't really disagree with that assessment. "So she knows everything then?"

"Yeah, every bitter detail." 

Friday, October 26, 2018

The Emotional Roller Coaster of Life - The Cut-takes

The Emotional Roller Coaster of Life - The Cut-takes

The Cut-takes will feature scenes from people who aren't main characters, scenes too short to make official chapters, scenes that occurred prior to the start of the story, and the scenes that occurred between the prologue and chapter one. 

The first scene in The Cut-takes will be Edward's dream which I posted earlier on my blog. The second scene is below. Both with be posted on FF soon. 



The Emily Scene
July 29th, 2011 

She had been married to Sam since she was eighteen and it was hard to believe that in another eight months it would be twenty years that they'd been together – not that they hadn't had their share of cliffs and crags.

After ten years of being married, the cuffs that bound them together had begun to chafe and her husband ended up having a relationship with a young woman. Emily had never found out who it was that he'd spent a summer running around with. At the time it had happened she hadn't known about it all, actually. In fact, she hadn't found out until more than four and a half years after he'd broken it off.

When she'd discovered his infidelity, she'd walked and returned to her parents home on the Makah reservation. She'd never been able to determine if father spirit had a hand in it or if it was just pure kismet, but the discovery of her being pregnant had been the only thing that had prevented her from filing a divorce.

Almost the entirety of the next year – and most of the year after that – she'd spent living with her parents. It was only after her husband had gotten down on his knees and begged for forgiveness that she'd gone back to him.

The twins, Alec and Jane, were a handful. At four years old now they got into everything, from matches to water hoses. So far they'd had two house fires, a house flood, a torn up couch, and four prank calls to 911 in the last six months alone which had all been caused by the twins. Their ability to get into trouble left both Emily and Sam exhausted daily.

She woke up at five in the morning to find the twins already watching cartoons on the television.

She shook her head. "What do you want for breakfast?"

"Marmelly cereal!" Jane shouted.

Alec suddenly looked at her. "Mom, doesn't rocky road has marsamello?"

"Yes, and nuts. And no you can't have that for breakfast, Alec."

"That wasn't why I wa askin. I saw a dawing of a man at Lee-La's house and she say it was drawn by Seth. She call the picture rocky road. Why would a dawing be a rocky road?"

Emily's brow furrowed as she contemplated the meaning behind a comment like that and didn't respond to her young son.

Thursday, October 25, 2018

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Serial Black Widow is coming soon to FF and other sites. Should be posted by Halloween banning all else

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Story Recs - Halloween Edition

These Recs are in honor of Halloween so they're a little bit on the dark side of things. Some are darker than others, and they're posted across a few different sites. Feel free to read.

FF Stories:

Blood Play by TWBB - Waking up naked in a strange bed is bad enough. Waking up naked and tied up in a strange bed is worse. Even worse than that? Waking up naked and tied down in the bed of the Vampire that wants to eat you.

Blood Play by kissyfur - There Will Be Blood contest Readers' Choice 1st Place Winner: Waking up naked in a strange bed is bad. Waking up naked and tied up in a strange bed is worse. Even worse than that? Waking up naked and tied up in the bed of a Vampire that wants to eat you.

Vampire Kisses by BittenBee - Bella's truck breaks down in a storm and the only shelter in sight is a mysterious home with an equally mysterious occupant. When she thought all was hopeless in life, a flame ignites within her once more. One bite at a time. One-shot, DARK THEMES.

Blood Crazed by RachelxMichelle - Bella Swan may look like an average 18 year old, but she's not. Her mother suspects something is going on and thinks shipping her off to live with her father who is the chief of police will help, but it won't. For the Darkella's Darkest Temptation Contest

I Always Know by peters.kitten - I had always been different. My own mother was terrified of me. She would never know what I gave up so she could live her perfect little life. She would never know that she would have died ten times over if it wasn't for me. But I knew. I Always Know. O/S

Empty by Hev99 - Set after Edward left in New Moon, assuming that he never returned and Jacob never helped Bella to heal. Two years later Bella's life is a nightmare until she is reunited with the family she misses so desperately. Can they save her from herself?

The Fallout by OCDindeed - March 16/06 the world the Cullens knew ended. Faith, hope & love are powerful things. Edward finds out how powerful they are when he loses the one person who made his life worth living. Not just an E/B story. Entire Cullen clan is here, each with their own hardships. Set during a post-apocalyptic nuclear war. Try the Prologue before passing judgment. You might be surprised! NM/AU

Conversations with My Killer by Oracle Vas - To me, life was a heartbeat in time and a breath of air. Jasper showed me it was truth, justice, faith, love, and fear. He dared me to be different. He encouraged me to defy the rules of my world and create my own. And on my last day, he took it all.

Beneath this Sky by Bedelia - Nineteen years ago, time unraveled. In a changed world, Bella fights to save a man from the past and a girl with no future. AU.

Hunted in Seattle by Elise de Sallier - Edward wasn't the only vampire to find Bella's scent mouthwatering. A delay in her journey meant she never made it to Forks, but she did become a vampire…in the worst possible way. What sort of a newborn will she make without the Cullens to guide her, and what will she think of Edward when they meet? No rape or graphic violence . Edward & Bella HEA...eventually.

The Sky Is Painted With Red by IsisIvy - Seven billion people live on Earth. Only a small percentage know of the darkness beneath them. Those people are known as Human Donors. My name is Bella Swan, and I am a human donor. ExB, Vampward, short chaps w/ frequent updates, M for usual.

Inhuman Nature by LyricalKris - This is the story of two vampires. One sinister monster who collected the humanity of others. One who struggled to find the humanity he lost. This is the story of one human. Victimized by one, saved by the other, thrown into the middle of a myth, saddled with a secret terror of one monster she could only share with another. You don't need to be human to be humane.

In This Life by A-book-geek - SLASH: Edward Cullen/Harry Potter/Klaus Mikaelson. "Edward was killed in 1300's. Now in 21st century, he and Bella are getting married. Everything changes, when two men come to his house, claiming that he is their lost love. What will he do?" REINCARNATION. Explicit Sexual Content. OOC. Mature Themes. Two Shot!

Twilighted Stories:

Hide and Drink by Savage - Bella’s blood was just too tempting to be ignored. In this version of Twilight, Edward takes Bella on a sadistic journey with his monstrous side. While Edward drags her around the world, barely keeping a step ahead of his frantic family, Bella battles the monster for possession of the gentler vampire inside her captor. EPOV.

Beyond Repair by GreatEscape - When the Volturi arrived in Texas to put a stop to the warring vampire armies, Bella was only able to escape with her life by the skin of her teeth. Her search for a better life was not successful. When the Cullens find her many years later alone and seemingly unconscious can they help her to find the peace she once sought or is she damaged beyond repair?

Stars Library Stories:

The Training School Saga by TheSpoiltOne and Footroza - Bella gets sent to a school by her boyfriend to help her become the wife he wants. It isn't what Bella expects, at all. BDSM, Dark story.

Human Pet by cullens_pet - Edward doesn't make it to the ballet studio on time. James has a fate in store for Bella far worse than death. One that she could have never imagined, even in her worst nighmares.

The Freshies Club by maelyn - A darker Edward learns a new technique from his brothers and starts a very special club, luring his new female classmates in. Will Bella be in or out? Can she handle the competition? Can Edward handle the competition when Bella and her friends are dragged into the dark world of the vampire's who want to collect them?

The Perfect Wife by rmcrms5 - After Renee and Phil die in a car accident on Bella’s 17th birthday. She is sent to live with her father, Charlie and brother, James in Forks WA after being separated for 10 years with no contact. Charlie dabbles in training and placement of the “perfect” wife for exclusive clientele. Bella quickly learns that she’s going that she’s going to get more than a high school education. She's going to be educated with a purpose.

Personal Story Rec:

The Science Lab on FF or The Science Lab on ADF - An alternate universe where Edward didn't resist temptation after Bella sat down at the desk next to him. One-shot.

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

New Stories

Announcing

I am now starting to post some original fiction on my FPress account. The first story I am posting is a novella sized story Sex, Blood, Revenge (and Everything in Between). It is a story that I originally wrote about eight years ago.

To correspond with this story, I now have an additional page on my blog entitled Original Fiction

It's the first time I have posted it on FPress, but it used to be posted on TWCS. 

Updates will be slow as I'm rewriting it to make it feel like a more complete piece of work. I'm also extending it out some.

Click HERE or on the photo below to go to the story


Summary
As an age old princess who has sworn to kill every vampire in existence after her mate was murdered, she has taken to being an assassin. She is given a job to kill one of the last living vampires directly responsible for her mate's death. When she finally meets up with the sexy Donohue, can she resist his charm? As she falls head-first for the man who decreed her mate's death, what will be the consequences? Is revenge stronger than lust? Can she really ever love him or will the blood debt win out in her eyes? As fire, sex, lust, love, revenge, hate, and anger meet; is there a chance in hell it will end well? Rated M
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The second story is never before posted and is one I've worked on, off and on, for years. Just like the first story, this one will be slow to update.

Click HERE or on the photo to go to the story


The Summary
Drake has been an assassin for years. He has a dark history, a dark present, and an even darker future on the forefront. He's always fought for the things in his life that matter; money, faith, friendship, and now he fights to keep a love he never expected to find. Is it possible for him to save the woman he loves and still keep her once she realizes what he is? Rated M
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While neither story is going to be a priority for me, sometimes I need to work on stuff other than fanfiction, these two stories will be the product of that time. 

New Muse Needed

SEEKING MUSE

I write a lot, and usually when I write I tend to have a general plan of the direction I want a chapter to go, but currently I'm finding it difficult to focus on several of my stories. Usually I use music or shows or movies or sometimes books to help get me into a mood to write. But as of late, I'm floundering with several of my stories (specifically, Rebirth and Affliction, RR, and It's A Twin Thing), and just not finding anything to inspire me for writing them. 

So if you have any music, books, movies or shows to recommend to me please comment. Absolutely anything might help get me in the mood to write then please post a comment (or send a dm on ff)

Monday, October 22, 2018

Rebirth and Affliction Sneak Peek

A teaser of Chapter 13 - Newborn:

“Do I have to tell them as well?” I asked nervously before we got to the house.

“If Archie hasn't already told them everything than they deserve to know, Beau. It'll be alright.”

Every muscle in my body tensed but I'd said I wouldn't run anymore, so I squeezed her hand again. “Okay.”

“Why are you worried, Beau? They won't judge you anymore than I have.”

“Royal and Jessamine?”

“Jessamine understands sides of being a vampire that almost none of the rest of us do. She's not going to judge what you did, Beau.”

“Even given the fact that it puts all of you at risk?”

“You're assuming that the Volturi are going to find out? If they'd been able to suss that out, they'd have already come here to kill you, Beau. At this point it's fair to say it's safe.” There was humor in her voice as she spoke.

I glowered at Edythe for a moment. “This is not even slightly amusing Edythe.”

“You helped to destroy one of the oldest members of the Volturi... I'm not a hundred percent certain that she wasn't older than the leaders of the Volturi even. I'm not sure that they'd try to come after you even if they did know. Sulpicia values her life too much to risk it.”

Sunday, October 21, 2018

The Differences Between Fantasy and Reality Sneak Peek

A teaser of the Interlude:

When summer arrived, it brought on some of the best months of my life. I didn't know it at the time, but I would never forget that summer.

In early June my father and I went to the fishing excursion in Ontario, and the week in Ontario fishing with my dad was very enjoyable with us catching several pikes, walleyes, muskies, and more. My dad pushed me into the lake at least once every day that we went out on the lake on a boat. It was fun, freeing in a way that almost nothing else had ever been.

After we came back home and the summer started in full force, I ended up taking a job at Newton's Olympic Outfitters part time. I spent mornings stocking shelves, checking people out and quickly doing google searches to find out what the difference was between water repellent and water resistant.

Saturday, October 20, 2018

Poll for Rebirth and Affliction



Another Chance, An Escapee's Future, and The Unfortunate End of Bradley Tanner are not listed on the poll because we have not gotten to where they come into play as of yet. 

Friday, October 19, 2018

Serial Black Widow Teaser

A small sneak peek at my future one-shot, Serial Black Widow:

“My name is Bella Montgomery, and I'm a murderer.”

It was almost funny for me to say those words aloud, but they were true. The first person I'd ever killed had been Embry Call – of course, given that he hadn't been human, calling that first killing a murder was debatable.

But I was getting ahead of myself, or possibly behind myself, because I was currently looking in my bathroom mirror and carefully applying the makeup that would make me look far more heart broken than I actually was, because I had a funeral to go to.

Ten years ago, I'd been a normal teenage girl, and I'd been infatuated with love – or possibly just the idea of it – but then my heart had been torn out by the man, the vampire, that I'd fallen for. In the months that had followed his leaving, I'd drowned. Eventually I'd given up on the idea of living and went to find a place that had once been special for both the man I had loved and myself – our meadow – wanting to find a place to die in peace.

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

The Differences Between Fantasy and Reality Sneak Peek

A teaser of Chapter 25 - An Occasion:

“Can't we just go to Port Angeles or Olympia or Tacoma or Seattle?” I asked grumpily. I didn't want to do this, but somehow I'd been roped into it. Not by Edward, ironically enough, but by his annoying little shrimp of a sister that I was going to find a way to kill for this.

It was February 19th, the day of the 'Crush Dance,' in honor of the holiday that featured far too many chocolates and roses for any sane person's desire. It was also in honor of the soda beverage, Crush. The cheerleading squad, headed up by Lauren – of all people – had been more than eager to run a “Crush for your Crush” campaign for the last month to drum up money for the coming summer's cheerleading camp. The whole gist of it was spend two dollars to give a can of Crush anonymously to whoever you wanted. If you added an extra dollar you could send a note with it, and if you wanted to spend five dollars you could give them a fancy glass bottle of crush – note included.

I'd ended up buying two. I sent one to Mike with a note claiming it was from his secret gay admirer, and the other to Edward with a note with only three simple words on it.

Even so, I didn't want to do this. Dancing wasn't my thing, had truly never been my thing. I just wasn't that kind of person.

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Story Lengths

This is mostly a case of me not being sure what I want to post at the moment so I'm going with useful information for my many readers.

I have several active stories at the moment,

For now let's go through the ones I have currently active.

My continuation of Life and Death:
  • Death and Rebirth included a preface, 25 chapters, and an epilogue. (fully completed)
  • Rebirth and Affliction includes a preface, 28 chapters, and an epilogue.
  • Affliction and Life is slated to include a preface, between 40 and 45 chapters, and an epilogue.
  • The Unfortunate End of Bradley Tanner is slated to include 18 chapters.

The Differences Between Fantasy and Reality:
  •  This story includes a preface, 25 chapters, an interlude, another 25 to 30 chapters, an epilogue, and finally a postlude.

It's A Twin Thing:
  • This story is still in it's infancy and I'm still not 100% on where I'll end it, but I strongly suspect it would be somewhere around 25 to 30 chapters. It includes a prelude and will end with an epilogue.

RR:
  • This story is going to be a short story. I'm guessing it's going to be less than 15 chapters, but definitely no more than 20 at the most. It includes a prelude and will end with an epilogue.

The Hunter:
  • Originally this story was going to be about 30 chapters with a preface and an epilogue, but I'm now contemplating going past my original plan. I guess I'll see when I get to that point.

The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life:
  • Of all my pieces this is the one that I am the least certain of. No matter how I see the story though, I don't see it reaching it's conclusion in anything less than 100 chapters and more than likely will exceed 150 chapters. It also includes a prolegomenon and will have an epilogue and most likely an afterward set several years in the future

Monday, October 15, 2018

The Hunter Opening - Returning to Fanfiction Soon.

The Hunter

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight as I am not Stephenie Meyer. Since I am not her, I make no money from any fanfictions I post. I also don't own the Evernight Series by Claudia Gray which is part of the inspiration behind this story.

AN: I originally started writing this story in 2010 but removed it in 2015, it was only about a third of the way done. This was always a story that I wanted to finish but after awhile I wasn't a hundred percent happy with the direction I was taking it. So while this is a re-post... it's also going to be a rewrite.

Chapter 1 – The Return

It had been four years since my last visit. This wasn’t a visit though, this was business.

Nineteen years ago my mother had enrolled in Forks high, because she had been on a mission. A vampire had been stocking Port Angeles, and it was my mother’s first personal mission. She had been seventeen when she had enrolled as a senior, but had gotten in over her head, and not with the vampire. We could fight vampires; that was easy, once you learned how. She couldn’t, however, combat young love. She had prematurely gotten married, ended up pregnant, and I had been the product.

I, Bella Swan, had been a mistake, an accident. I had had it drilled into me a thousand times; I never should have been born, at least not then. My mother had always planned that she would eventually have a child, but she had always believed it would be the product between another hunter, never this. I was never meant to exist. Not that it mattered, I did, end of story.

My mother, Renee, was one of the strongest hunters in our group, and her husband, Phil, was the leader. I was on my first private mission, back in Forks. My father himself had called and told us of the vampires in Forks. It had been Phil, who had decided to send me here, and I had to admit that I was excited; my first true vampire hunt.

My father, Charlie, the chief of police, didn’t know that I was being sent out, he wouldn’t know until I knocked on the door. I knew he would freak when he realized that I was the hunter of choice.

I was driving my black Pontiac Solstice, which had been a birthday gift to me on my sixteenth birthday from my mom, to Forks. It was probably going to be the sweetest vehicle that the town of Forks had ever seen.

I only had three bags and my purse with me. My purse consisted of my wallet with all three of my fake IDs, my papers for school enrollment, my cash, my credit card, my cell phone, my IPOD, some basic makeup, a small vial of Calts Oil, and one tampon. In my first bag I had all the clothes and toiletry items that I needed. In my second bag were my laptop, and all the personal items that I took wherever I went. And in the last bag was my hunting gear.

Now vampires weren’t like the old myths tell you. Vampires wouldn’t burn in the sun, instead they sparkled. Holy water wouldn’t work, crosses wouldn’t work, stakes only work to kindle a fire, and forget everything else that you have ever heard. A vampire was like rock, so a bullet would do no good. They didn’t shy away from onions and garlic, and their eyes could be black, red, pink, or gold.

There was only one way to kill a vampire, burn it to ash, and spread the ashes. The only good vampire was a dead vampire. So no matter how handsome or sexy a vampire looked it was deadly.

Vampires didn’t have heartbeats; they didn’t have blood running through their system, and technically they didn’t need blood to survive.

Vampires were its, there were no he’s or she’s. No matter what sex they had when they were human, they were no longer human, and therefore no longer had a sex to mention.

A vampire didn’t have a conscience or morals, it wasn’t possible. Vampires could be convincing that they had emotions, but they didn't have those either.

Our hunting group specialized in vampires, but we knew of the other creatures out there, and we never lost sight of that. Our group was called Rose based off of Phil’s great great grandmother back when she had started our group.

I knew my father wasn’t going to like the fact that they had sent me, but we were currently short on numbers, and fifteen year olds were going out on hunts by themselves currently. We had been seriously depleted of manpower when one of our hideouts had been burnt to the ground with six men, seven women, and twelve children burned alive. The police said it was an accident but we all knew the truth – the soulless bastards burned one of our safe havens to the ground, and it only renewed my faith that we were doing the right thing.

On my left ring finger was a small diamond ring that I would remove before I started going to school. My fiancé, Jeod, was currently in Oregon on his own assignment. I loved him, but it wasn’t in the way that people should get married for. He was only two years older than me and we grew up together, we had known each other our whole lives, but we were like brother and sister. Our marriage was more of a way to take one for the team, as less and less of the females chose to get pregnant. It took too much time away from our work to be pregnant for nine months and then raise a child for the next few years. Our group was slowly dying out though, so Jeod and I decided to marry and have a child. It was a mutual decision, and at least we loved each other in some way.

I pulled to a stop in front of my father’s house. It was the same paint job that it had had the last time I was here and I was shocked to feel a sense of relief. I hadn’t been in a place that I could even begin to consider as a home in almost a year, and though this wasn’t really a home either, it was the closest thing I had.

I got out and grabbed my bags before walking to the door and ringing the doorbell.

A moment later Charlie opened the door, his eyes widened. “Bella, what are you doing here?”

“You’re the one that needed a hunter, well here I am,” I said acerbically.

Sunday, October 14, 2018

The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life Outtakes

As I'm now almost thirty chapters into The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life, I'm starting to realize there are some scenes that I can't go into in the story that I'd love to show in more detail. So far there are two that really stick out in my mind.

First

The Date - The scene showing the epic first date between Rosalie and Emmett from the time they first sat down to eat, to their night in bed together.

Second

William Charles Black - A story showing the happiest point in Bella and Jacob's life from when their son was born. 

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Are there any scenes you'd want to see that happened in the five years between the prologue and first chapter of the book? 

Please comment with what you'd like to see if you do.

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Story Recs

I've done this before but felt it was time for another

These Recs are freely given without any kind of offer or suggestion from the authors of them. Some are older stories, some are new. They are for a multitude of fanfics and, as I'm not good at writing personalized reviews, the summaries are directly from the stories in question.

All stories in this post are on FF.net, so if any of the authors that I rec'd are for some reason upset by it and want me to remove their story then please let me know via a pm on FF.net and I'll remove it - but as it's free publicity, I don't know why someone would take issue with it.

Priority Client by Eowyn77 - Breaking Dawn. Lawyer J. Jenks gets to know Mr. Jasper. I began this over on R&T but since the site is down I'm continuing it here. Enjoy!

The Renesmee Series by greenpeach20 - The Story of how, through her many life experiences, Renesmee fell in love with Jacob. It's primarily romance and humor, but also has a hint of everything else in between.

Continuation of the Twilight Saga: Crimson Aurora by Harcad - Old friends return to Forks with a piece of information that threatens to change everything. Old friendships revisited and new ones formed. Lot's of answers to all those questions that arise after BD. Bella's POV 3 others opt mild angst

The Tempted Lioness by Trumarine - Bella is a vampire; Carlisle, Jasper, and Rosalie also share the vow of inhumanity. Now as they meet their human mates temptation rises and self-control is tested. Can these bonds survive or is there no hope? Rated M for lemons and violence. BxE AU

Another Heart Calls by XxTwilight CrystalxX - Jacob left right after Bella's heart stopped beating in Breaking Dawn, not even staying long enough to take care of the evil spawn. Twenty years later, Jake's made a life for himself with new friends. Friends that introduce him to a new girl at the local collage. A girl who is oddly familiar but not.

Little Dreamer by LyricalKris - Our story opens with a frightened seventeen-year-old girl on the run- battered, starved, exhausted and nine months pregnant. How this is going to turn out is anyone's guess. Life never does know how to play fair.

Before the Dawn by BookwormBaby2580 - After her mother's wedding in Mexico, Bella encounters a vampire with less altruistic motives than the those held by the vampires she might have met in Forks under drastically different circumstances. One bad decision, she discovers, can change her entire life. AU E/B

Invictus by Moonchild707 - With her father dead and nothing more than a truck full of boxes, Bella Swan embarks on a journey to California. Fuelled by distant dreams brought to her through an old letter from her estranged brother, Bella finds that the Golden State is not all sunny beaches and blowing palm trees. A story about reuniting after tragedy, and about what it means to be family.

Through a Glass, Darkly by Moody Peach - [New Moon AU] Bella took a hard fall and awoke a week later as a newborn vampire with no memory of her former self — and she is far from alone. When she is found years later by a vampire coven who claim to love her, she must find a way to navigate her fractured memories and discover who she truly was and who she has become.

The Son of the Sea by A-book-geek - "Olivia finds a merman imprisoned and being tortured by the muggles and couldn't stop herself from helping him. A bond is formed between them and they fall in love, but she knows he won't be happy in her world, so she lets him go. Will they ever meet again or are they destined to live in misery for life?" Female Harry Potter/Merman Edward Cullen!

Friday, October 12, 2018

The Differences Between Fantasy and Reality Sneak Peek

A teaser of Chapter 24 - Impasse:

Over a month had passed since I'd been shot. A month where Edward coddled me from a safe distance. He was always there whenever I needed anything and he'd won over my dad in a way that I'd never thought I'd see. For that first week after we got home, Edward was always there with my pain meds when I needed it, with my food, and more.

He'd always be waiting outside of whatever class I was taking when it was done and would walk me to the next class. He also continuously tried to help me with my homework. He was doting and concerned and treated me like glass.

In essence, Edward was the perfect boyfriend. But I didn't want perfect – I wanted normal. I wanted equality. I wanted to believe that he actually loved me, not just the idea of me... but as every day passed, it got harder and harder for me to believe it.

When winter break arrived, Charlie and I were supposed to go to the reservation for Christmas and spend the day with the Blacks, but then Carlisle and Esme invited us to their place for Christmas and we ended up going there instead – the first time we'd spent Christmas with someone other than the Blacks.

The day with the Cullens was fun. I watched as the Cullens each opened numerous gifts and found it amusing as they had to eat the meal they had prepared to keep Charlie from getting suspicious. They ended up giving Charlie and me a gift of a week long fishing trip to Whitefish Bay Camp in Ontario for the coming summer.

It was a trip that my dad had been wanting to go on for years but it had never been something we could budget out and I was almost a hundred percent certain Edward must have picked it out of my dad's head. I was gracious about the gift – happy on a personal level even – but it was hard for me to swallow as I knew exactly how much that trip cost.

It made the angel ornament I'd given to Esme, the leather bound notebook I'd give to Jasper, the vintage baseball I'd given to Emmett, the vinyl record of Debussy for Edward, the print of a picture of a Chicago hospital back in 1918 that I'd spent hours scouring the web for so another piece of their family history could be recorded on Carlisle's wall of pictures, the delicate crystal rose I'd gotten for Rosalie, and even the free flowing blue pure silk shirt in Alice's exact size all pale in comparison. My gifts had been from the heart, but they looked like foolish jokes in comparison to the fishing trip costing in the five digits.

By the time I went home that night, I felt so low that I closed and locked the window with the lock I'd had my dad install a few week prior. I knew it wouldn't really stop Edward if he wanted in my room, but I had hoped he would respect my need for privacy. I cried myself to sleep that night.

When I woke up the next morning, the window was no longer locked and Edward's scent in my room was stronger than ever.

Ideas

So as is relatively typical for me, I have a slew of ideas in my head. Some of those ideas have to do with stories I'm already working on... but some are other ideas entirely. Many of my ideas are one-shots or short stories, and some are longer stories. I'm hoping by writing this post that I can put these ideas on the sidelines for the time being.

My Ideas

  1. The Wandmaker's Wife - A pre-Harry Potter canon style tale from the eyes of Garrick Olivander's wife dealing with the creation of the wands, the birth of their children, the death of their daughter and more. :: Possibly a one-shot or maybe a short novella
  2. The Heirs - Renesmee Cullen, unaware of the fact that Jacob imprinted on her is sent away to go to high school at Auradon Prep in the rural kingdom of Auradon. When she meets one of the other new students, Jay from the Isle of the Lost, will he be the love of her existence? A momentary crush? or a newfound enemy? :: A Twilight/Descendants story
  3. Serial Black Widow - A New Moon AU where Embry imprinted on Bella but Bella was too broken from Edward leaving and ended up betraying the ultimate trust between Imprinter and Imprintee. Set years later, Bella has become a murderer of the darkest kind. What will her future hold? :: A one-shot
There are several other titles that I also have floating in my head with no specific plot line behind them. Those titles include Queen of None, If Dragons Could Fly, Catered Death, Moon of New, and A New Faith.

Finally, I'm contemplating going back to working on The Hunter.

Thursday, October 11, 2018

The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life - The "Real" Chapter 26

Officially, this chapter was removed from The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life because it A) doesn't add much to the story unless you're a psyche major or otherwise like to over analyze stuff, B) is only about a hundred and fifty words (so shorter than my minimum in my drabbles), and C) it's a dream so it doesn't exactly fit with the rest of the story.

But for anyone who wants to read it, here it is:


Chapter 26 - Dream (Edward)

August 1st, 2011


He was running on a giant hamster wheel and going nowhere. The hamster wheel was made of a kaleidoscope of colors with giant twizzler flavored bars. It felt like he'd been running on this same wheel for years.

He could feel the beady eyes of the giant ferret staring at him and he wanted to curl in on himself and hide, but he couldn't stop running. He didn't dare stop.

If he stopped then the white rabbit or black hawk would get him for sure. He just knew it. They were always trying to grab him and take him away from his wheel, but his wheel was his safety and he needed it. It protected him from the giant dark brown ferret that was always looking for another way to hurt him. 

So he didn't dare leave his wheel. It was his only real saving grace. The hawk and rabbit couldn't save him. 

No one could.

A Black Decision - A Missing Moment Serial

A Black Decision

~Part XIX~

When she didn't respond to my question in too long of a time I ran my hands through my hair and walked even further away from her. 

The way Beau and Edythe both acted made them two peas in a bloody pod. I snorted.

I started to think, started to try and figure out another option since plan a wasn't going to work. I just wasn't sure I'd be able to help Beau, not this time...

"Who says he needs help? He just needs time," Edythe demanded, poking around in my brain again. 

"Trust me, he needs help. You don't get it, why he came to me, He wanted me to -" I stopped talking, shutting the thought off cold.

I could feel her staring a hole in my back. "What did he want you to do?"

I shook my head. "It doesn't matter. Okay, look. If you aren't going to come now, then don't come. Period. He needs something steady at this time that will help him to get back on his feet. I'm pretty sure I can do it... if you don't interfere."

"What? First you want me to come get him and now you want me out of your way." 

Edythe didn't say it out loud, but I could practically hear the jealous accusation again. 

I turned to look at Edythe. "Look, it isn't forever, but if you aren't going to come get him now because you want to prove that you trust him -" I snorted, I was more of a hold tight and never let go kind of girl, myself "- then you're going to have to actually trust him and give him time to come back to you. Most likely he'll be back in less than three months. He doesn't... love me. Not really. He loves you though and he will come back to you." It killed me to say that, but I knew I was right.

I walked back over to my bike and got on my bike. "I'm serious. Come to La Push today or tomorrow or give him space. It's your choice, but I'd choose the former if it was me."

I started the bike and drove away, not waiting on an answer. 

Wednesday, October 10, 2018

A Black Decision - A Missing Moment Serial

A Black Decision

~Part XVIII~

"Why don't you get it? Beau's a runner. It's a typical attribute of men... some women to, but that's besides the point." Like the woman in front of me who took off the moment the going got tough and it started to look like rough seas ahead. 

Edythe snarled at me.

"Your letter was cruel enough to keep him from chasing you back in September, but you needed to be chased just as much as he needs it now. It's not like you have to go very far either. He's just a few short miles away. Go get him and convince him to come home."

"Our problem has always revolved around trust, not some stupid need to be caught. He promised he'd come back on his own. If I go to him now and ask him to return with me than I'm completely destroying that trust. I'll lose him for sure then. Or is that what you want? So you get some easy in with him after driving me away from him."

"Is your jealousy making you so blind that you can't see what the boy you claim to love really needs?" I spat angrily.

"He needs for me to trust and respect him." 

I threw my hands up in disgust at her words. "No. What he needs is to know that he's loved. That he's wanted. Even as he is now... especially as he is now." 

"Maybe you don't know him as well as you think you do, because he knows I love him."

I walked away from her to keep myself from punching the stubborn vampire. I turned back towards her. "Look, maybe he does know it here -" I patted my own chest. "- but does he know it here?" I tapped on my brain.

Edythe narrowed her eyes at me.

To be continued...

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Rebirth and Affliction Sneak Peek

A teaser of Chapter 12 - Time:

“The longer I contemplated this fact, the more I wonder if maybe the real future that I should have embraced was a young death – wouldn't that be better than ruining hundreds or thousands of lives? It was part of why I ended up sinking my car off the coast in California.”

I heard Edythe let out a pained gasp as I took a breath, but I didn't dare look at her or pause because I knew if I did then I'd never be able to admit the full details of what a monster I truly was.

“You have to understand that even though I wasn't happy with the realizations I was making, I was actually was still soul searching at that point. I hadn't decided on anything for sure. So I continued to Florida. I wanted – needed even – to see my mom, to find out that she was doing alright. She is by the way. She actually was working on paperwork to adopt a child while I watched from a careful distance. I even watched Phil coach a little league on a shockingly cloudy day.” I smiled at the memory. “Of course, by then it had been almost two weeks since we left Volterra and I was starving. There really isn't much in the way of large game in Florida, and even if there was... I'm not sure I could have made myself do it... Not then, anyways.

Monday, October 8, 2018

A Black Decision - A Missing Moment Serial

A Black Decision

~Part XVII~

I could have shifted and ran through the forest to get to the Cullens, but I ended up riding my motorbike to their place instead. I'd needed the time just to clear my mind as I still wasn't sure what I was going to say to them, and more specifically to Edythe. 

I started thinking about the patrols to keep Edythe out of my head when I got within what I believed to be her range of hearing. Even so, when I arrived at their house, she was waiting outside for me. 

"Why'd you ride to our place today?" Edythe asked, her eyes narrowed at me like she was trying to dissect some sort of problem.

"Beau's back." I refused to think ahead, trying to focus on anything but what I was going to have to tell her - and by extension the six others that were probably in the house eavesdropping.

"What? When?" Edythe asked, louder than necessary. 

"He showed up a few hours ago in La Push." Well, he waited for to come get him at the old border actually.

Edythe latched onto my errant thought. "Why did he wait for you at the treaty line?"

I remembered his red eyes even though I didn't want to. "I think he came looking for something. Maybe it was something that I'm not going to do, or maybe it's something that I actually can do. I don't know." I shook my head, working hard to not think the real reason why he'd come to me - what he'd really wanted me to help him with. "But, I'm pretty sure I'm not the one he actually needs, Edythe. I think - and you know exactly how much I hate saying this - but I think you should go to La Push and get him. Today."

Edythe frowned at me, not saying anything for a few seconds before finally responding, "He promised me he'd come back to me someday on his own and that he just needed time to think and sort out his life. If he went to you, he must believe that you are part of what he needs."

I let out an annoyed snarl at her words

To be continued...

For the record, there are only a two or three more pieces to this serial at the most. 

Sunday, October 7, 2018

The Emotional Roller Coaster Of Life Basic Details


The nine main characters:
Alice, Leah, Rosalie
Edward, Bella, Jacob
Jasper, Seth, Emmett

For anyone unable to read the typing on the photo, they state:
Emotionally Unstable, The Lover, Pregnant
Lustfully Addicted, Can't Make Up Her Mind, Not So Devoted Husband
Too Serious, Forgotten Love, The Joker



The Cars:
2004 Mazda Miata, 1998 Volkswagen Beetle, 2008 Ford Shelby Mustang GT500
2001 Volvo S60, 1953 Chevrolet 3100 Five-Window, 1998 Nissan Sentra
2007 Ford Escape, 2001 Chevrolet Camaro, 2009 Chevrolet Silverado 1500

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Bella and Jacob - small one-story, traditional two bedroom house

Alice and Jasper - two-story, colonial three bedroom house


Seth and Leah - two bedroom apartment

Edward - one bedroom economy apartment

Rosalie - Charlie's old house

Emmett - open-plan loft style house. 

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The Jobs

- Bella works as 'assistant manager' Newton's Olympic Outfitters (sometimes called Newton's Sporting Goods)
- Jacob works as a mechanic at Dowling's Auto Repair
- Emmett is the chief of police of the town of Forks
- Rosalie owns her own clothing line
- Leah works as a waitress at The Lodge
- Seth is a barista at Pirate Cove Cafe at Peninsula College
- Alice works part-time as a web designer 
- Jasper is on full-time disability due to the damage done to him in the army
- Edward has no job and lives off of social services

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The Highs and Lows on the Roller Coaster

Bella
- Suffers from bancophobia
- History of failed pregnancies
- Self-sacrificing
- Optimist
- In love with two men

Jacob
- Stubborn
- Self-acclaimed cheater
- Proud
- In love with the wrong woman

Edward
- Has a drug issue
- Is an alcoholic
- Likely suffers from PTSD
- History of being abused
- Doesn't know the meaning of love

Rosalie
- Has OCD
- Is self-driven
- A workaholic
- No nonsense attitude
- Pregnant 
- Has no time for love

Emmett
- A lady's man
- Often seen as a joker
- Blunt
- Sarcastic
- Not so secretly in love with one woman

Alice
- History of being abused
- Has PTSD and Bi-polar disorder
- Is a cutter
- Deeply in love and devoted to her husband

Jasper
- Suffers from PTSD
- Has anger issues
- Has chronic pain from injuries incurred in the army
- In love with his Little Miss to a fault

Leah
- A free bird
- Has an addiction to sex
- In love with none

Seth
- Gay 
- Ashamed of his own feelings
- Loathes himself
- Unwilling to acknowledge love